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I have been hesitant to write as much lately. Almost as if I am afraid that if I put it down on the screen, it will somehow jinx it.

Silliness I know.

My heart is changing....Growing....Believing again.

I think those who know me well see it, feel it. I was joking around to my husband last night that I feel as though I was abducted by aliens. LOL....

I cannot fathom the changes that have come for me, which is why I credit God for the steadiness in my heart.

I am still struggling, I suppose we all struggle, the difference today is I am not trying to tackle it to the ground by myself and failing.

I think My husband is changing in all of this as well, he may have done it before and I never noticed it, but he is trying so hard to be patient and loving. The small little things he is doing carry me through the day, and truthfully, by the end of the day, all I want to do is snuggle up with him on the couch...

I am taking such joy in the tiny things I never even realized I was missing.....the brush of his arm on my leg as we sleep, the sleepy smile on his face when he wakes up, his hand on my back when I am doing dishes, his offer to help me with whatever I am doing.

We are re-learning each other.

Starting over.

..........and you know what?..............

I can't wait.

- Julie

A new day...

What is family?
Why is it so important?

It is simply more precious and important to me than anything in my life and I am so glad that I have this chance to try again with them.

The past year has been a whirlwind with a lot of pain and confusion.

I struggled daily with homosexuality and what this all meant for my life.

I know that this will be a struggle always but I am going to trust that God will help guide me to what is best for me.

For my heart, for my soul, and therefore leading to a happy and content life.

There is such a journey ahead for me.

So much damage, so much to learn, to grow in and to begin to understand.

I have sat at the darkest depth of me, and I no longer want to feel that pain.

I will surrender all, begin again, and ask for help from those willing to offer it.

Even if it means my pride.

To my husband... I love you, and I am so thankful that you did not give up.

Together, I believe that with our faith, love and hope we can find our way to a peaceful, content and satisfying life....