Been awhile..

I dislike it when my words do not come easily. I just stare at what seems like a vast white space and try to think of how I should fill it.
So much going on in my head and heart. I suppose that is not new, and will be the reality of my life! In fact, I think that is the way it is meant. For us to constantly live and learn and reflect.

I went to a marriage enrichment weekend last weekend and it was so wonderful. Just having that time Dave and I, was on its own so wonderful and special, but the principles that they taught us and communication insights were not only humorous but very effective.

When I think of what I nearly lost, of all that I nearly ended for good.....Man, what I would have missed out on.

We never really know what is coming do we? We are so quick to base our lives on the moment, instead of what could be in the future.

My dear husband, for all the times you stood by me, all the times you didn't, all the times we fought so hard I thought there was no way back, all the times we nearly gave up......I am thankful.

We are now in such a different place. I thought that the word "we" was going to be gone for us.....

I want to encourage anyone that visits here that feels a little lost, or lonely.....Time is on your side. Things will get better.

I still battle the sadness sometimes, my moods add to my confusion and I can be really difficult to live with (just ask Dave) but, you know what, I am not alone.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, Baby, I love to read your writing - to get to your heart in a way that can seem harder in person.

You can be a titch hard to live with somedays, but always know that you are loved, and that no matter what - I WILL be here.

I Love you so much it hurts some days.

Dave

Karma said...

Hey! This is the most beautiful post. So reassuing and reaffirming. Every marriage should have that, especially after coming through what you two did. Hugs

gadgetgrl said...

This is great to read. I'm glad that the weekend went well and life in general is too.

Me and you are in about the opposite positions we were in a year ago- isn't that weird? At least soon we will be physically in the same place ;-) I take comfort in your words that things will get better. Isn't this quote the best?
Anna Quindlen writes a piece using it ....

“Life is like playing a violin solo in public and learning the instrument as one goes on.”- Samuel Butler